Friday, November 8, 2013

Careening off the Wagon

Hello Sedentary Stephanie,

NOT GLAD TO SEE YOU!!!!

With disdain,



Fat Girl TRI-ing



What the hell???  I haven't just fallen off the work out wagon, I seem to have gone all Thelma and Louise with my work outs and am free falling to the base of a cliff hundreds of feet below.  

What the hell?

I'm mad at myself...but not enough to get up off my couch and do anything about it...yet.  I'm still holding out hope.  I'm still planning on renewing my USTA membership this January.  I still plan on signing up for events in the spring.  But a full IronMan in 2015...meh...dunno.  

Here's the excuse list, in no particular order:


  • I'm tired...ALL THE TIME.
  • I hate running again.
  • Spin class isn't as fun as it used to be.
  • 5:00 am is SO.  FREAKING. EARLY!
  • Candy Crush
  • It's cold out
  • I'm tired.
  • I hurt my back (this one is actually valid)
  • My meds got all screwed up for a few months, which through me off track, and it's really hard to get back on
  • A whole bunch of people I know did full IronMan events this year...and while at first I was inspired, I now feel pathetic in comparison.
  • I'm tired.
  • The pool hours don't work with my schedule.
  • Facebook
  • I don't have a running or workout partner to hold me accountable.
  • I run so freaking slow that I can't find a running partner.
  • I like bacon. (not an excuse, just wanted you to know)
  • I'm tired.
Since August I feel like I have been in a perpetual stupor.  It sucks.  And I can't seem to motivate myself out of it.  No amount of motivational Pintrest quotes can seem to get me moving.  And I just feel inadequate.

...sigh...

So what am I going to do about it?  Not sure.  

My triathlon future could go one of 3 ways:

  1. I can get my act together, get back on track, start training again and feel like a bad ass.
  2. I can get my act together, not worry about triathlon, but just start moving again to be active, lose some more weight and shrink my ass.
  3. I can sit here on my couch at 5am and troll facebook because I'm awake but have chosen to be a fat ass.
...sigh...

I'm so tired.

1 comment:

  1. Hey kiddo just don't be soooo hard on yourself, please! The meds screw up can really mess u up....I know personally. Give # 2 a try, cause it is very important to keep movin.

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